Your You-Ness Has No Path

But it does have a mirror.

Photo by Jayson Hinrichsen on Unsplash

This post is inspired by and written for my wondrous friend Lindsay, who wrote exactly the right thing at exactly the right time. Thank you.

It’s a million degrees in many places right now, and Ontario, Canada is right up there. (It’s actually cooler where I usually live in Costa Rica today.)

So the other night, I decided to go for a walk about an hour and a half before sunset.

I have had the most amazing… year? Years? But the last few months have brought a clarity of self-ness that has changed me right down to my bones.

Magic, making magic, living a life of magic, animism, and being in-cahoots with God, the Divine, and really the whole UNIVERSE have always been guiding lights for me, but a few weeks ago in my daily writing, I realized that it wasn’t just something I did or wanted or loved, it was something I AM.

I had just never accepted that level of possibility of feeling before.

But this clarity did something I had given up on: feeling truly passionately obsessed with something. I had heard about obsessed from lots of hashtag-loving people, but even though I had love and desire, I hadn’t been hashtag obsessed with anything since… maybe ever?

So on this walk, I was walking in this not-new-actually-the-oldest-one-I-have identity. Committed to collaboration. The sun sets slowly this time of year here, and I was at a point where I had to make a decision to turn around, or to keep going the longer way. I didn’t exactly ask the question, I just lived the wonder.

As I came up to a t-junction, a grey pickup truck drove slowly almost past the intersection, and then made a deep u-turn and drove back in the direction it had come from.

I laughed, and winked back at the Universe, and made my own u-turn.

Why does this matter? Because we are always being shown a mirror, if we are willing to look into it.

In the weeks that followed my writing clarity, I came to understand identity work in a way that I hadn’t before.

It’s not about being something, or pretending to be something, or wanting or desiring or manifesting anything. It’s about knowing who you are at your essence so clearly that you just know that I AM.

I’ve got a bit of, ugh, can I actually write that? as I write that.

Does your own insidious no show up whenever you get close to something that really matters?

I have figured out why.

Because there is no mirror you can see your face in.

I know you thought I was going to say it’s because of training or stories or beliefs or insert everything you have already been taught here.

That’s way too easy and way too disempowering an answer for you.

When you begin to step into what is you, it will always ALWAYS be at an edge. It will ALWAYS feel like an abyss, or a threat, or something to feel anxious about. You will ALWAYS not feel ready.

And you will be right. Your fears are valid. Your no is saving you.

Because your you-ness has no path.

And no path is terrifying to your soft, vulnerable, fragile human self.

But this is what my 25+ years of living, breathing, and working with magic has taught me.

There actually IS a mirror. There actually IS a map and a path.

It’s just not one that looks like you think it should.

We have been taught that we must follow the map.

Follow this map and you will get where I am. Follow these instructions and you will get to where I have been. Trust me, you’ll love it there.

So we follow people with a whiff (or a lot) of what we want, and we wonder why we feel lost, unsatisfied, or why we then stop following their guidance even though we know that if we follow it, it WILL bring us to the place we think we want.

I talked to a client yesterday and we talked about feeling the need to gnaw through the bars to get free. From what??

From a life that just doesn’t feel like us. No matter how many times we have set off with a good map.

So what can you do? You marvellous seeker. You beautiful creator. You believer-in-magic you?

You realize that the Universe is YOUR map.

And that magic is YOUR mirror.

Neville Goddard wrote: “Signs follow, they do not precede.”

When we decide what we want, or who we are, our whole job is to take the first step.

That edge you have been dancing on is the key you have been looking for.

You have placed approximately ten zillion orders with the Universe in your lifetime.

That is probably a low estimate.

Your muchness/ your you-ness is precious to that Universe. Your desires are guideposts at the edges of the uncharted territory you are supposed to map.

The step that is offered to you right now, ready or not, will take you off of the map, but now you know that that means that you are being supported and guided and you are closer than you have ever been to everything you have ever wanted.

Because you won’t find what you want on someone else’s map.

A sign is evidence that you have already become more of Who You Are.

So bless the fear and move anyway.

The Universe will show you who you are.

If this made your knowing tingle, you will love The Wild Twin! It’s most definitely not a map. It’s a living Field Guide to help you come into conversation with your truest you. Because that you has signs to see.

Thank you for being here. If something resonated, please share it with someone who might also love it. And if you ever want to hit reply and tell me what you know, or what magic you are making, I read every single one.

I’m so glad we are both here.